your smile put all the city lights to shame.

i dont know anymore too. ):
i miss the feeling.
th feeling of liking somebody.
and getting your hopes up.
and everytime his face comes into view, your pulse quickens with every move.
and with every smile he gives you, your heart jumps.
and as time goes by, it becomes something more.
thats what i wanna feel.
even for a second.
i wanna feel th magic.
Lifes great ... i thinkkk.

As each day goes by, i look out and see th sky.
and wonder,
why is it so blue.
why is it so sad.
why am i so sad.
everythings in place.
everythings going fine.
but somethings missing.
a broken piece.
and now i finally see,
it will always be missing,
for its th piece you took.

studies are like, not going anywhere. at all.
baba's making me go crazy with laughter everyday.
:D
its fun,
but sometimes, i get scared.
scared that in a second, everything, everyone, will just walk away.
and why wouldnt they.
they've done it before.
i hate this.
i hate to be scared.
i hate to cry.
i hate, hate, hate, hate this feeling.
and what youre doing to me,
nothings ever gonna happen.
trust me.
forever frozen.
this heart.
forever mine.
i broke this heart.
and now.
theres nothing left to break.
Still, im like a package saying please dont break.

What is love ?
When does it happen ?
How do you know ?

Watched "I hate luv storys." A hindi film. :) i have to say, it wasnt soo bad. Actress is so beautiful. The actor also okay. :) both fit each other well. It was a funny movie, but romantic.
But it made me think.
This love. Everyone talks about.
Everyone wants it. Forever.
But what is it.
Does it even exists.
Doubts. Again.
I am full of them.
The songs were brilliant.
But kinda sadddd ):
I am so tired. Going home tmr. Home :)

Its still there.
Somewhere in you.
I've seen it in your eyes. Dont lie.
Because we both know, it can never be.
I guess I'd rather hurt, then feel nothing at all.

Im like a package, saying please dont break.

The doubts will always be there. Even if i dont like it. It will always be in th back of my mind. Because getting hurt is really something idw to go thrgh again.
Its like history.
Im in the dark. Let me hide away from what's fantasy.
I was falling apart but now im falling forever.
My love's a token.
Idk ... Should i give love ?
Should i ?
I would love too.
All i want is to be a dream, where im in one piece. No missing fragment.
Theres nth left for me to break.
The only thing breaking now, is my heart. Full of barriers.
Haish.
In kl now :)
I close my eyes, and youre all i see.
Why.
Its all fun and games.
I know. And you'd hurt me.
You say no,
but why wouldnt you.
Its hard. But its harder for me, because i'll push you away, when really, all i ever want is to be with you, because i'll hurt you. Because i care. I love. I'll see you walk away, you'll think me stupid, a bitch or wdv,
but trust me,
You dont need me.
You dont.

Youre th perfect lie.
I feel drunk even without drinking.
I've thought about, yes. Drugs. Drinking. Smoking.
Wanted to try it, yes. But never got to.
Alone at home.
Staring at th screen,
I want to say,write a thousand words.
But i cant describe them in anyway.
You brought me outta of th darkness, and now youre putting me back.
Why cant i just hate you and be done with it ?
Instead, you say all th sweet things at all th right times,
But its all lies, aint it ?
One big fat perfect lie.
I dont wanna be in it anymore.
Leave me.
Please.