Sorry for not posting for a ververy longtime. Have been very busy. too busy.
"someday. somehow. somewhere. Prince charming will come and save me from the nth ive become. I have totally given up. Everyones falling in love whereas i have to fall outta of it. Why does everything have to be so fxked up. Lately, ive been getting mood swings. I have even tried cutting myself again. i cry aft listening to songs or just out of the blue. Why must everything bad happen to me ? Why do i have to be so fugly ? Everytime i look at my friends from afar, they look so happy and so together with or without me. It feels like i dun belong. Everything thats happening at home is my bloody fault. Its so easy blaming a teenager who alr has enough drama and probs from school and love and then they add on top of it, WHY ? COS IM JUST A STUPID TEENAGER WHO KNOWS NTH ABT LIFE. But seriously. smtimes it feels like i know more than them. More pain. More love. More fun. More time. I cant take it anymore. I just want to get out of here. Write poetry. Write songs. Sing. Have fun with my friends. And be happy. Thats all i want. Thats all i really want and need."
"If You Just Realised What I Just Realised, Then We'd Be Perfect For Each Other And Will Never Find Other." <3

i hate you for making me feel this way.
i hate you for being so hard too read.
i hate you for being suck a bastard towards me.
i hate you for being so mean yet sweet towards me.
i hate you for always giving me attention.
i hate you for making me laugh.
i hate you for making me lose my breathe.
i hate you for making me speechless.
i hate you for telling me how sorry you are then going back on youre words.
i hate you for being so awfully "goodlooking"
I hate you for your delicious smirk that makes my heart jump.
I hate you for never paying any attention to her.
i hate you for never even noticing her.
i hate you for looking me that way.
i hate you for making me feel this way.
i hate you so much but even after that i manage to like you. imfallingforthwrongperson. its become at a point where i just dk what to do or say. i cant do tis. to her. i cant . but ure so ... woah. i finaly have nth to say. or idk what to say. Why did things have to get so complicated ? Everyday w u is like a fairytale. i swear. U r the total opposite of what i wished for. U r nothing i wanted. But who knew ? Who knew right ? Hatred turned to love. WOAH. Idk when or how. just you. being you and being able to get away with that. i got so mesmerized by it. By you. Haishh. How did things go so outta hand. WHY ! I dun believe this is actually happening. I just want it to end. quickly.
"Its hard knowing i dont hate you, but i have to act that i do .."