Looking back at my 13 or almost 14years of life. i dont regret anything i did or am doing. i dun regret making those decision. i dun regret becoming bestfriends with regine. i dun regret getting into NA. i dun regret getting into BEDOKSOUTHSEC :D. I dun regret becoming friends with LEORARACHELAFIQAELISHEBAKAILING :DDDDD. I dun regret falling for him or you. I dont regret letting him and you go. I dun regret being stubborn,crazy,funny,wild,childish,sensetive,emotional,bigmouthed,a little rude and straightforward. I dont regret all the fights i had with LEORARACHELAFIQA becos it only made us closer :DD. I dont regret having my mum as my mum. I dont regret being born into this HUGE, A LITTLE ANNOYING, A LITTLE PROTECTIVE, BUT FUN, DRAMATIC, WILD FAMILY :DD. I dont regret falling in and out of love easily. I dont regret looking how i am today. I dont regret the time i spent thinking and dreaming of you. I dont regret anything. nothing. I dont regret where i am today or who i am today or who i am with today or what am i today. :DDD.Because you only get one shot at life. At love. At happiness. :DDD.

Half Of me thinks youre the one. Half of me is so ready to see you leave forever<3

Fairytales dont always have a happyending do they ? When u leave, Im going to miss u like a child missing their blanket but ... big girls dont cry right ? There will be others. But ... theres something in u i dun see in them. but wth right ? i am nth to u. :). And what hurts the mosts is being so close, yet so far apart. Whhy do we have to grow up so fasts ? Whyy do we have to leave the ones we love when ... its all just becoming so clear to me ? Why was i so dumb ? Why was i such an idiot ? Sometimes its better letting go without knowing the real reason ...Because it will surely hurt more when we find it unreasonable. Why are guys such assholes in the first place ? Why do they only go fr looks ? Really, is looks everything and the heart nothing ? Because if thats the way it is, THEN ALL GUYS SHOULD DIE ! ALL THEY CARE ABT IS THEMSELVES AND THEIR FUCKING HAIR THAT SUCKS !
If only i could rewind time, Go back to all the moments i had just staring at you, i would u know. i swear. Why's it so hard ? Why's saying goodbye so hard whhen i dun even know yoou yet ... im feeling this wayyy. IM BECOMING PATHETIC D:
But guess what ! :DDD. I KNOW THAT THERES SOMEONE OUT THERE FOR ME> MADE JUST FOR ME ! :DDD. HE"LL NEVER LEAVE. HE'LL LOVE ME SO DIFFERENTLY AND WONDERFULLY. HE'LL MAKE ME FEEL LIKE HEAVEN ! AND HE'LL LOVE ME TILL THE END OF TIME !BECAUSE I KNOW IM WORTH IT AND I DESERVE THE BESTS AND NOTHING LESS.
"Theres just something about our future love. Future Love. Future Love. :DD"

THIS IS FOR LEORA.AND RACHEL AND AFIQAAAAA :). My 3 SWEEEETTHEAAAARTS.

A place to crash
I Got You
No need to ask
I Got You
Just get on the phone
I Got You
Come and pick you up
If I have to

Whats weird about it
Cause were right at the end
Mad about it
Just figured it out in my head
Im proud to say
I Got U

Go ahead and say goodbye
Ill be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
Ill be alright
And when you need a place
To run to
For better or worse
I Got You

In falling apart
Of
Lets be bigger than that
And remember
The colding(?) outdoor
We were both alone
Both surviving
No trouble no need for a show
Just wanna say;
I Got You

Go ahead and say goodbye
Ill be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
Ill be alright
And when you need a place
To run to
For better or worse
I Got You

Go ahead and say goodbye
Ill be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
Ill be alright
And when you need a place
To run to
For better or worse
I Got You

Cause this is love that I
And nothing we can both control
And if it dont feel right
Youre not losing me by letting me know

So,
Go ahead and say goodbye
Ill be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
Ill be alright
And when you need a place
To run to
For better or worse
I Got You

A place to crash
I Got You
No need to ask
I Got You

Now, for all the scldings i have kept in me.
TO CLARA: U DONT EVEN KNOW ME. So DONT JUGDE ME. AlL U SEE IS WHAT I SHOW. I KNOW IM A FUCKED UP PERSON WITH A FUCKED UP ATTITUDE> HEY, I KNOW :D. AND IDC. I dont. seriouslyyy. u can hate me all your lifeee and i wldnt care. AT ALL. What matters to me is LEORA, AFIQA, RACHEL, KAILING, AND ELISHEBAAAA ! :D. They know me. Much more then YOU do. And seriouslyy thats all i need. I dont need your "ADVICE" on MY ATTIUDE PROBLEMS. Becos i know how to solve them my self. And well ATLEAST I KNOW IM A FUCKED UP PERSON WITH A FUCKEED UP ATTITUDE. I WWONDEEER,
DO YOU ?

Schhoools GREAAAAAAAT ! AWEEESOMEEEEEEEEE as alwaysss. Just got a little harder. with people leaving forever and never coming back. Sometimes life is just so ... IRRITATING ! PAINFUL ! But MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY MAKE IT ALL BETTEEEER !
LOVE RITHAAAA :D

I LOVE LEORA, RACHEL, AFIQA ! These 3 made myday ysterday !I have never been so happy like i was yeterday for a very long time. i will rmb yesterday forever. 8th january 2010 :). PL is very tiring but also very funnn :D, so no complains :))
My heart cant decide. Its having a very tough time. Worth it ? or not ? one says its not. another says it is. :(. one year. thats all i have. dont i have to treasure it well ? i will. mess. im in a mess. i wanna get out of it. but somehow i always end up in it. i just realised tht love aint no walk in the park. nrvm. take things slowlyyyy and i must note tht i have my 3 HOTT,SEXY,FUNNY,CREATIVE,BEAUTIFUL besties tht may stay with me fr lifeeee ! and my wonderful family which in a way is very KPO. but hey ? they'll be with me till i dieeeee :DD. Suddenly youre the only thing thats matters. Suddenly, after this year i will walk into school and realise tht youre no more there. And will never be coming back. And suddenly i will find someone who will love me for who i am and will catch me whenever i fall. And suddenly, i'll be HAPPY,SECURED,LOVED,CARED FOR FOREVER :D