Flight got retimed fr 7:15am in the morning, that means i have to wake up at 4:30am cos we have to be at the airport at 5:15am, 2hrs before the flight, but the good thing is, tht when we transit at paris, we dun have to run ! :DD, cos we have 2hrs instead of 1. so yeaaa, a blessing in disgusts maybeee ?
--In Love ? Maybee ?Maybee not?But, Here We Go Again--
These hols without you seem so ... boringg and useless. I wanna hear yr laugh and jokees that make me smileee when im on the edge of cryinggg ... i wanna hear yr cheerful voice call my namee and i get butterflies in my stomachh .... But all i have of youu is memories of everythingg ... yr face ... smileee ... laughh ... :DD. Youre so hard to resists ... So hard to stay awayy fromm ... But i cnt give in .. not again atleasst, Not that im scared off getting hurrt, iim scared i'll hurt yoouu and all some abnormal stuff that onlyy happens to mee . :((((((. Haishh, when i go portugal, im going to walk on the beach and thinkk, bout everything. What i am.Who i am.Who this heart belongs to.Why im so emotional.Why i cnt change.Why and how i hide my emotions so easily.So manyy other thinggs ! :DD, Besides shopping at zara .. hehehehe :B. If only time could so downn ... Maybe everything will start making sense. If onlyyyy ....It hurts hating youu when my heart knowws that i donttt.
--Never Frown Becos Who Knows Who Might Be Falling For Your Smileeeee <3--

To Leoraaaaa :That pic is fr youuu ! :DD, my dear soulsis, When im goneeee :((, you justs be cmg backk, so sadddd :((, But ! if u have a probb, and well, need me, then close yr eyes, and imagine wht i wld do if i had that same probb and wht advice wld i have given youuu. And when i come bacckk, you can tell me everythingg A-Z ! :DD, ILY ! Goodbyeee sweeeeetheaaaaart ! :DD. Be hapyyy ! No fighting when im not there !(LOL!).
To Rachel: The pic starting with "shes Been there" is for youuu. Miss, all i can say to youu is ! IM GOINGG TO EUROPEEEE ! Stayyy jealous till i get back kay ? Then when i show u the pics i tk ! Muahahahaha ! Im so evil ! Hehehe, but u know i love youu and u usually dun have any probbs whatsoever, so yeaaaa. And i dun mind if u dun miss meeee, cos i dun think i'll be missing youuu ! LOL ! im jk. Miss you and lovee you, Gooddbyeeee misss !
To Afiqa : My Twinnnnnnnn ! 14dayys without me ? can handleee ? Of cos u cannn ! :DD, you know what i tld u on msn ? Rmb it kay ? Cos i lovee you too :DD. Tell me everything that happened and every fight you had with ppl and if u fell in love with any hott guy :DDD, LOL. :DD. hehehehe. i mean it :D Miss me and i will miss youuuu :)). Lovee you and Gooddbyeeee.

TO A+R+L : Will miss all 3 of you deeplyyyy. Will think of you guys with every pic i takee and will dream of us together as friends forreever ! Be happyy, whilee im goneeee :DD, no crying. No emo. No fightinggg. Heheheeh. Love you all. And will miss you guyss, cos 14 dayys are longgggggg then + the hols, even worseee, and whu knows whats in store fr us next yeaaaar ? Hope i stayyy with all of youuu, 4EVER AND ALWAYSSS ! :DDD. Lovee youuu, Goodbyee and Goodnightt Beautifuuls. :DD

"I dont want to run away, But i cant take it, I dont understand, If im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am ... "

So many sleepless nights becos of youuuu. So manyy thghts of youu in my headd. Im justs wonderinggg. Suddenlyy you came into my thghts again. The whole day today, I stared out of my window, Thinking and Waiting. Does it ? Does Love reallyy exsists ? Will he come ? The one ? Will he ? Ever ? Come and swept me off my feet and Love me forever and ever ? Is there such a thing as a fairytale ? Becos i want a fairytale, I seeriously want oneee. My own onee. Limited edition. One in a millionn. :DD, I will wait. If it takes forever, Then forever i will wait. Believe and Achieve. :DDD

"So what if it hurts me ? So what if i breakdown ? So what if this world justs throws me off the edge, My feet run outta ground, I gotta find my place. I wanna hear my sound, Dont care about all the pain infront of me, Cos im justs tryna be happy ...."

I cant do this anymoreee. I musts stoppp. I cant bottle everythingg up, It justs hurts my dear ones, But when i let it all out, I go out of control ! Justs, not me. Sometimes i feel that this life is not worth living. Im not worth anything. Justs painn. Everytime i console another, i take away a bit of their pain, and it becomes my pain. And it justs builds up, until i cant take it anymoreee, And when i let it out ... :(. I always choose the path which not many takee, Full of unclear feelings and pain. I, will regret what im doingg but hey, its the onlyy solution, i think i have left. So what if it sarces my body. Atleast it doesnt sarce my heaartt.

Watched so many dramaaaas, and out of them the 5 bests ones are :
-(Goong)Princess Hours-
-Devil Beside You-
-Smiling Pasta-
-Romantic Princess-
-9 ends 2 outs-

*If i can have you, I can breatheeeee <3*

HAPPPPYYY BIRTHDAYYYYYY !
Regineee ! :D

To Youuuuu :D :
The first time we ever met was in the middle of P5. You were the shyy, quiet good girl, while i was the total oppositee :). Me, you, Ynez, Wenhui and Huijun, Were quite closeee than, But i didnt know that in P6, You were the closet to me. I'd tell yoou every singleee problem, saddness and happyness, And you shared it with meeee. Evenn when we startingg, doing "stuffs" to ourselfs, we actuallyy did it togetheeeer ! :D. Dumb right ? But reginee, in this lifee no one can outshine you, no matter how many greater friends i meet, in secondaryy school, jc or poly or in uni. Youre the onlyy onee, whu never, not onceee, left me alone. You stayed thrgh everythingg with me. Even when i found out youu didnt reallyy likee me, and actually hated me, Yoou tried your hardest and make me frgive you, And if i didnt frgive you. I dont know what i would have done withoout. Even with a one year separationn, We are still as closee as ever. When i have fights with my other friends, All i have to do, is justs tell you everything and you will tryy your hardest to make me feel better. And when you needed me, You knew where and when to find me, And i helped you, And always will, be there when you cryy, smilee, laugh :D. Becos i know, wherever i am, I can rely on you, And yoou can rely on me, Foreveer. :D. Forever and Ever and Ever ! :D, becos my friend, I Love You, For everything you are, For everything youve done for meeee. Words cant display my affection and love and thankfullness to yoouuu, Becos, Youre one in a million and Bestsfriends like youuu, are rareeeee :). So lets cherish this friendshippp that we have forever and ever moreeee :D. HAAAPPPYYY BIRTTTHHHDDAAAYYYYY ! :DD. I LOOOOVEEEE YOUUUUUUUUU, Ms Regine Mak ! Heheehhe, I havent got my presents yettt ;), well so have youuuu ;), Mustsss find a day to meet up, on my 15th birthdayy, becos right noww, I have a bloody leash around me and cnt go anywhere till im stupid 15 :(. But nrvm, Talking to you on msn and webcaming with you, Makes it all better. :DD.
Sarangyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! I <3 Youuuu !
Loveeeeeeeeee,
Rithaaaaaaaaaaa :D

Watched Smiling Pasta for the 3rd time, todayyy :D. Now watching "Together", Quitee niceee also, But nth can beat, "Romantic Princess " and "Smiling Pasta" I Loveeeeee Themmmm :)). My mooood is currentlyyy badddddd, :(.

Seriously, When you say that you will be there fr me, Did u fucking mean it ?! Its like, yesterday, when i needed you, I smsed youuu, one bloody long sms, Did u even return it ? I know why u cnt return it, But when i came back online, Did u even asks me ? If i was fine ? If i was better ? No, not onceeee. Heck caree alr lar, treat me whatever wayyy you one lar, Okay ? And when youre upset with me also, You dun tell me, I musts go found out, Or asks you, If not, youre afraid you will hurt my feelings, Isnt it worse that i'd be kept in the dark abt how u feel abt me, Then later finding out frm someone else, or u justs telling me ? Which one will hurt moreee ? I dun know what to do alr.Seriouslyyy up to youuu.

*Being with youuu, Its so disfunctional, I reaallyy shldnt miss youu but i cant let youuu goooo*

When You Have Crazy Friends, You Have Crazy Timeeees ... (For Leora and Rachel :))

To Leora And Rachel : I know whats happening, Leoraa, How many times did you give them chances ? And how many times did they do the same thinggg ? How many times did you shed tears for them ? And they still didnt get how much you love, want and need them ? I dun know, I have given you all the advices and solutions i could ever think of, Its up to you to make the decision, But no matter what, Youre never gonna be alonee, You to Rachel, You both will never be alone. If you ever feel like letting go, I wont let you fall. I will every tear that you shed even before it drops to the ground. When your worlds come crashing down, I'll hold you till the hurt is gonee. I Love you both very very very much, That my heart mayyy explodeeeee :D. I LOVEEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ! No matter, I will always be here and you'll always be here, In my heart :).

"Here comes goodbyee. Im sorry, but im letting goooo. Its now or never, Saying goodbyee hurts, But i know somedayy i find someone that will makee me feel excatly the wayy you makeee mee feeel,Im happyyy to sayy, That i did lovee youuu, But i cant anymoree, I cant wait for youre whitee horse to comeee, When i know veryyy well, You wonttt, So ... Goodbyeee and Goodnight Beautfiul .... <3 "

I want youuuu.
I need youuuu.

Its killing me, Knowing that when i wake up each day, I will never see you again, Walking through those corridors. "Forget now, Dont regret". I dun now anymore,
My heart is falling deeper. I swear, I know you belong with me and no one else,
but maybe fate changeddd ? I dun know, but all i know is that, I love you.

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that


Don't know how I lived without you
Cause every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild,
Causeee, Youuuuu makeee meeee smileeeee :)( This is excatly how i feel Bout Youuuu)

I wannna thannnkkkk leora for the cutest and pinkiest carebeaaaarrr ! And Aelma for tht wondeeeeerrrfuuuuul booookkk ! Loveeeee youuuu bothhhhh :D

Happy Birthhhhhdayyyyyyyyy toooo meeeeeeeeeee !

Hahahahahahaha ! Finally, 1 3 ! Teenagerrrr ! Now i have ALLL the excuses to be WILDDDDDD ! HAHAHA, Will posts someomre when backk frommm skewlllll :D

Todayyyyy was an "Okayyy" dayyy becos of aft remedial, Unwanted feelings and people:(

Then rushed home after PL meetinggg, Sat infront of comm for a while then, go bath, change go tuitionnn, Then mum picked me then go eat dinner with my grandmmaaa :D.
Then HommmeeesweeetttHommeeee. Listening to "here comes goodbye" by rascal flatts, so niceee.

"Here comes goodbye,
Here comes the last time,
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
Here comes the first of every tear im gonna cry
Here comes the pain,
Here comes me wishing things had never changed,
And He was right here in my arms tonight,
But here comes goodbye.."

Sooooo sweeeeeeeeeeet :D. HAHAHA, currently helping mum mark exam papers, and talking to my dear Leoraaaaa ! <3, While thinking of youuuuuuu.

*Justin Bieber is damnnnn Cuteeeeeeee ! I <3 Himmmmmm ! *

Had a GREAAAAAT day in school todayyyyyy :D

Somethings should be left unsaiddddddd.
*These feelings have grownnnnn toooo deeeppp to be washeddd awayyyy:(*

Got syaiful a hersheys choco which costs $2.20 but it melted sadly :( And he didnt want it, so i threw it on the floor, and in the end he took it. :D. I know 2 people are coming, Maybe Aelma. Then invite somemore people tomorrowwwww :D.
I dont want anyone, Maybe the guitar ! :D, But i already have E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G i ever wanted. Family, Friends ... All the L>O>V>E i need, I have. They are all my blessings that i dont want to looseeee, At any point of my lifeeeeee :). They are M.Y Bday presents. Their, Love, Faith, Trusts and Everlasting friendshipppp is seriouslyyy all i neeeeedddddd :D. Nothing else !

Forget Dont Forget
Forget Dont Forget
Forget Dont Forget = Which one ? F or DF ????
Forget Dont Forget
Forget Dont Forget
Forget Dont Forget

What goes around comes around, they say. But seriously what the hell did i do ? I know i have a bad attitude,I know i can be rude. I know i am bias, i know im a bloody fucking bitch, But hey people need time to change right ? You dun expect to snap your fingers and kaboom ! You totally change. I dun deny anything i have done wrong to hurt you all. I dun. Even saying "Sorry" i know its also no damn use. But atleast i admitt im in the wrong. Haishh, Whatever i say also to you all is crapp and lies. It doesnt hurt anymore thoughh, You guys hate me soooo many times. It doesnt hurt anymore. I dun mind if i have to walk alone. I dun mind if i have to cry alone. I dun mind anythinggg anymore. In the end also, Its still my fault and i except it. I hopee people who hate me are satisfied, I practically losts everythingg. I dun care anymoree. This is life. People make mistakes and learn from them. And you were the ones who told me to Forgive and Forget, Well thats what im doing. Where do i go from here ? Do i stopp and think ? Or do i justs gooo onnn ? Wherever i go, whatever i do, I will still remember the good times we had, No matter how much you ppl dislike me ... I still will Love and cherish what we use to be and not we've become. I still will Love and cherish every moment we spent together. I still will Love and cherish You, Forever, And though my words, to you dont mean a thing, To me, They mean so much more ...

Finally got com backkkk :).

Went for halloween party with family yesterday and only came home at 1 am ! But it was worth itttt. :). Im now planning for a very very special occasion :) Currently talking to Leora on MSN while listening to "Body Language" by Jesse mcartney ! Besttttttttt songggggg everrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! I LOVE IT ! Got so many remedial during hollllsss :(. But will lasts only 1 week, so not thatttt baddd.

O that bodys like music to my ear
O that bodys like music to my ear
O that bodys like music to my ear
what you want is right here

Oh she, oh she so international
The way, the way she get it on the floor
Im tryin Im tryin to holler at you
I want, to get, to know you better

Parlez vous francais?
Konichiwa come and move in my way
Hey, little chica from Guadeloupe
That thing you got behind you is amazing

Now, I dont speak Spanish, Japanese or French
But the way that bodys talkin definitely makes sense
Its her, her body, her body, her body language
Its her, her body, her body, her body language
The way she moves around
When she grinds to the beat
Breaking it down articulately
Its her, her body, her body, her body language
Its her, her body, her body

That make me want to say
he-eey, he-eey, he-eey
Its her, her body, her body
her body language come on

Shorty, let me whisper in your ear
Tell you, everything you wanna hear
You got my vote Hottest Girl of the Year
Lets have a ce-lebra-tion, baby

Parlez vous francais?
Konichiwa
Come and move in my way
Hey, little chica from Guadeloupe
That thing you got behind you is amazing

Now, I dont speak Spanish, Japanese or French
But the way that bodys talkin definitely makes sense
Its her, her body, her body, her body language
Its her, her body, her body, her body language
The way she moves around
When she grinds to the beat
Breaking it down articulately
Its her, her body, her body, her body language
Its her, her body, her body

That make me want to say
he-eey, he-eey, he-eey
Its her, her body, her body
her body language cmon

Im lifting up my voice to say
Youre the hottest girl in the world today
The way you shake
You got me losing my mind
Youre banging like a speakerbox
Turn around the party stops
Universal lady, let me take you away

Now, I dont speak Spanish, Japanese or French
But the way that bodys talkin definitely makes sense
Its her, her body, her body, her body language
Its her, her body, her body, her body language
Its the way she moves around
When she grinds to the beat
Breaking it down articulately
Its her, her body, her body, her body language
Its her, her body, her body

That make me want to say
he-eey, he-eey, he-eey
Its her, her body, her body
her body language cmon

O that bodys like music to my ear
O that bodys like music to my ear
O that bodys like music to my ear
What you want is right here

Lyrics for Body Languageeee ! :D. Jesse mcartney= HOTTTTTTT ! :D HAHAHA !